My life's a mess now. I'm gonna make a drastic decision of my life suddenly. I am sicked of this, totally. What the hell, I still gonna wait till next year to effect the change. This is enough, but my next decision will turn out well, I hope. I'm tired, really tired. It had changed me since 10 years ago, I've never doubt, but it still did not turn out as it should be.

For now, my health is ringing its bell. I seriously think this is occupational injury. How can you shield all your good health? I'm not sure. Hope my decision can make me a better person...

Wait out!

It's been a while since my girl is born. Since then haven't gotten a chance or time to write crappy stuffs. Recently lots of thoughts went thru my mind. Especially regarding what do I really want in life and future after feeling fire had died down..

However I am proud of myself being smoke-free for a good year in the entire 2009. Woohoo.. dammed proud of myself. Still, the evil me still thinks of *Shttttttttt* sound.. Wahaha.

Anyway now that I'm a dad, there is a need to behave and think like one. WTF, I am still waiting for one good miracle to happen. Tough luck never ends. Arghz!